Writing Out the Homesickness
February 28, 2009
Something that I didn’t really think about, even up to the day I left Shanghai was how much I would miss the place. Just like going there in the first place, coming back felt right. It felt like the thing I needed to do; I’d done my time and now I can go back and ponder the thought for a while.
Even being home, doesn’t stop me from being home sick. It feels like a good part of me has fragmented off and waiting for the other half to return to Shanghai. I haven’t just left part of myself over there, I’ve also left some of my dearest friends from the last couple of years. My regular Chinese friends since studying Uni have all more or less left me, or in fact remained where they are. I guess this is the problem which such circumstances, you can never have everyone you love together in the same place, and if so, it’s over before you realize it.
Before I went to Shanghai, over the holiday break several of my friends returned to their homeland, in which I followed (albeit to different places) shortly after for the exchange. When I came back to Australia, they all stayed put of course.
It’s not all bad, a couple of my friends are still here, or will be returning about now in time for the new semester. That’s comforting to have. Still, I sometimes feel terribly homesick even within my own home. It’s not a good feeling to have, and I know that even if I return later in the year, the other side of homesickness will occur.
Whatever the case, this is only a “sometimes” issue. While I miss my former life as a Shanghai expat, I just try and move on with what I’m doing. I still keep in contact with my good friends, more or less everyday which is great. I sure do miss them though.
On another note, I’m rather determined to make this year a year of words – corny! My University timetable is surprisingly slim through to year’s end, so really I’d love to use my free time writing as much as I can. I’m still clueless on what occupation I plan on occupying(!) once I graduate. Looking around on various job websites has made me even further dumbfounded. For now, I know three things; I enjoy writing, I would like to return to China sometime and this year I have ample time to kill. Put those things together and it’s rather telling of how I plan to disperse my time.
Considering that I have some workable subject matter, I’d also like to make this blog a little more prominent than just an emo-dump. At the same time, I’ve started a new Chinese only blog in which I can use to practice since I don’t have any formalized Chinese classes this year – as by personal decision. My goal is to eventually break down the barrier that I have between writing, publishing and posting, so that I can post more frequently, write more fluently and overall get all of my ideas out with much greater ease. Especially for my games blog, every post feels like a package that requires superfluous amounts of work for a single post.
I’m not suggesting some dip in quality. No, no, the quality control is in check, I just want to make the process a little more fluid and dynamic, to open up a wider platform of content delivery.
And that about does it for now. Still trying to figure out how exactly to write about my experience away. It really feels so overbearing that I have to cover so much, at least I have the time and space for it. Just gotta chunk it out now.
Tags: Life
Posted in Life | Comments (0)
Talking to The Walls Again
It’s been long enough so I might as well attempt to start talking about myself again. I must admit, I make a good topic of discussion, do I not? Obviously not, but as I mentioned somewhere on here before; there are plenty of reasons for me to blog for myself, which is why the time has come.
I guess the backlog will come soon enough -as I say again- but for now let’s talk just do the intro. If that’s one thing I want to do with this blog is start using it as a journal of “cultural discovery”. Woo! That sounds exciting. It would because it’s probably not what will come out. Whatever the case, my field trip in Shanghai had me on a constant train of thought, one that I’d like to dispel with some conclusion/closest thing to a conclusion here.
To do this, I’m going to force myself to chunk it out, otherwise I’ll just be here all day writing one long stretch of dribble that I’ll eventually tangle myself in and die.
Tags: Life
Posted in Life | Comments (0)
This is The New Blog Design, I Hope it Goes Up Soon
While in China actually, I managed to whip up a new design for this blog. The current one is great, but a little out of date and takes up too much room. I really just want to condense this all down before I properly get back into writing here. Unfortunately I don’t think that’ll happen thanks as once again it’s in the hands of my elder brother. Whatever the case, this new design will be up soon. So in the meantime I’ll just pretend like it is up. BTW, here is what the new design looks like:
Tags: Life
Posted in Life | Comments (0)
Hello My Friend, We Meet Again
February 10, 2009
10th Feburary 2009
Today I wanted to talk about one of my recent habbits that I’ve started to form since I got home. I find that I go to bed later and wake up later in the day. This is fine since I never really have any obligations the next day. I’ve slipped into this habbit because late at night is the most appropriate time that I can chat to my Chinese friends online. There is a 2.5hr time difference between Adelaide and Shanghai which means that the time when I usually go to bed is the ideal time to chat with my friends in Shanghai.
I did this a lot in China, spending 3-4hrs each night, most nights chatting to my friends that I’d met previously that day. Now even though I’m back home, I can keep this tradition up and its quite warming to do so, since I miss my friends dearly.
While I’m chatting I usually do other busy work tasks in the background which involve some sort of practice, so the chatting part is a great motivator to get me back on the language treadmill again. In fact, considering that many of my friends went back for the holidays and I don’t really have anyone to physically meet and practice, it’s ideal.
I also need to see how I go phoning my friends as well. That’ll come in due time.
Tags: Life
Posted in Life | Comments (0)
Next Page »
Have you checked out my gaming personal blog yet? No! Then take a squiz:
