Clubs

August 16, 2006

Most listened: TWM/Synkronized-Jamiroquai

Current longing: To prove some people wrong

There have been two things that have upset me a little bit recently. Its sort related to the entry about nice guys. My Maths class just really irritates me this year. It started off okay and went bad ever since I have been more work focused. You see, the start of the year was fine, until the first 2 tests scores came back and I decided that I had to do something about it. So a while later I moved away from my friends and into a small single desk in the back corner so I could focus a bit more. Its mainly been from there that I have been irritated. As mentioned previously, I am not a fluke. I work hard to get where I am and that is where I am at. No magical spells or giftedness. So there I have been for a while, sitting in the corner, busing my gut and keeping up with everything. Going very well.

Now you see other people are very different from myself. They are either gifted, a fluke or just whore it out when doing their homework. They don’t really work during class, they muck around and talk. Or play on the new interactive white boards(projector with touch technology with a stylus). Making plenty of ruckus in the process. I grew more and more annoyed with this and expressed my anger. Now because I wasn’t very tolerable of this nuisance some people obviously got perhaps annoyed at me. Well so I suspect.

Eventually one day someone turned around and had a spew at me. People were being annoying and I was annoyed about it and said something. Then someone else turned around and tried to justify me being as bad as them because of something they misinterpereted me saying the day before. I didn’t say anything back(although I am a good debater, I really do need some time to put things into perspective, like Physics really). They accused me of being racist against asian people, which is you know anything about me is completely 100% garbage. I don’t need to prove myself here, so I shall save some time and not.

The people that make a lot of noise also share answers with other people in the class and essential have their own sort of club. Of which I am not a part of. Anyways today I went to borrow the Maths Studies Solutions book overnight. Someone of whom I once thought of as a friend told me that Chris and I should buy our own book and that its not right that we borrow it and then return it late so that other people can use it. Now the thing is, I don’t return the book late(meaning other people miss out on the chance of using it). People in their little club do that. It just really upsets me that people just go out of their way to have a go at someone like myself.

I mean both examples prove that they don’t like me and wanted to say something that would affect me. The first one definetly as justifying me being a distraction to the class is completely irrelevent and isn’t even an argument. Thats forgetting that I am not a racist in the first place.

Then this other thing, it encompasses the same thing. It seems like some niggly excuse to have a go at me.

I dunno why people would hate me enough to want to say such things to me. Its just really sad that they do. I spose everyone needs their own sense of security and self worth.

-Dprimed

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