Some Reasonings and Stuffs about the Scribble Pad

March 4, 2008

Originally Written on February 18th 2008

There are a couple of main reasons why I post in my personal blog. If I had to be selective I would say that my three main reasons are to:

take a freeze frame of my life or what is on my mind at the time for future reference or interest

I’m always interested in back tracking what I have done. Sometimes it is to understand how I felt at the time, other times for reference to see what was good or bad about what I was previously doing. So that I can look at what I was doing and then improve on it.
to organize my ideas in my head so that I can make the best decisions

Every time that I am unsure of what to do in a particular situation and want to make the right decisions I usually let it out on the blog. Generally this starts with me trying to write a certain mold of story. For example I might want to write out the pros and cons, more often than not I get frustrated with this and write about something slightly irrelevant. From there I slowly lure into what I really want to talk about and as I write ideas are bouncing back and forth. Then I’ll hit a point where I know the answer and my problem is solved which leaves me with a page of unfinished writing, irrelevant to what I really wanted to talk about of which I don’t know how to finish. Which means that I awkardly try to conclude on something which I have already lost interest in myself.

So its not about the writing itself but rather what I get out of the writing.

to write for me, to express myself in a language that directly speaks to me

Its good writing for myself because occasionally I’ll hit a streak and just be pumping out sentences in which I myself can’t get enough of. Its like writing to impress yourself.

I also wanted to add that;

There is a trend that I have always had since I started personal blogging. I usually write up my thoughts and then leave it in the Word document until I feel like posting. I never write an entry and then post it up on the website once I am finished.

Now today is the 18th of Feburary and as I scroll thru my long journal file there are 3 posts in which are pending to be published from about two weeks ago to now. Then there is another 4 posts in which I won’t post up on the website.

Reason being because they are unfinished or just articles which I want to keep to myself. Theres nothing really interesting within them but they bear a significance for myself and will stay that way. You know, it isn’t actually very often that I don’t post something on the website, just seems to be that way recently.