Surrealism

August 8, 2005

Wow lets use this thing eh?

I feel so surreal ATM. I feel as though I have reached a point that I’ve been wanting for ages and now I’m not sure what to do. I have found my true identity, to the truest point. Its so good to be realistic to yourself. I am not trying to be anybody or anything, I am me and I feel more me than ever before. Its not like I’ve been much of a follower though, a bit a few years back in say year 5 or something like that with some of my friends and that kinda lasted till about year 7 when I moved schools. Although first year there I use to be a bit of a moocher myself. lol, other than that though I have been 100% Dan and have been loving it. But now I feel as though for some reason I have seen enlightenment.

I spose that you could say that I have been enlightened by learning from others mistakes. Unbeknown to them lol. I’ve seen people that are ‘fake’, they try and be someone that they aren’t just so that they think that they are socially acceptable. They are lying thru themselves. I am so glad that I am me and not fake like many people tend to be. That I don’t need to change if my friends change, unless its me. That I don’t copy what other people do and that I’m not a bland trend. God thank that.

So what else has been going on with me then. I picked up 7 CDs the other day:
In between dreams-Jack Johnson
GTO original Soundtrack-Tokyo pop

(What’s the story) morning glory?-Oasis
Feels just like it should single-Jamiroquai
Rush of blood to the head-Coldplay

Karma and Effect-Seether
Feel good Inc. Single-Gorrillaz

My brother also picked up:

Live in Texas-Linkin Park
Reanimation-Linkin Park

So that’s another thing that has made my life so surreal lately, I’m not use to getting so much music.

My forum life has also seemed to taken a shift. I’ve started to realize a few things. You see when I started off on forums I was a complete spammer, I learnt from my mistakes though and became a better poster to the redefined person that I now am. Now that I’ve learnt all of this I’ve started to realize somethings and just how pathetic people like me really were. They were just a pain in the fork for the rest of the community. ATM on my main forum of interest (well generally ATM its not really); Advanced Media Network there are a few people that were like me, irrertable.lmao yeah just like me. They bombarde every thread and talk just utter trash. Its funny though to see what happens when it comes down to a thread with intense debate going on, lol. So yeah, from what I learnt at the start of the year, when AMN was in the pits I’d just move over to another board that I’m on for a few days. I’m on 4 ATM, I mod at one, admin at my own and the other one is a local game indie site. So I haven’t been spending much time there. The local game indie site; Adelindie is actually on a roll of good conversation and its going really fast actually. I’ve been talking there. I’ve been having a debate with this guy about DS and PSP. Its good, I could do a much better job if I actually knew a bit more but I’m going well. So that’s another thing that seems t be so surreal to me. A central forum. I’ve started to grow a bit out of AMN actually, well not grow out, its just that its annoying with these people around, not to mention community problems that have been evident to me for a while. Such as many new members not getting the credit that they deserve yet members that the “veterans” that stay mainly to the general discussion and well aren’t very veteran enough, well thru my eyes. Its just frustrating when a vet posts to a game thread and they say something rubbish and then everyone follows onto it while some new member that posts a few times every week gets ignored. Its just frustrating. I try and have a good variety of posts. It’s a pity that the graphics board is deadish, I really want to get things happening there. So I’ve been thinking of maybe spending a bit more time at this board that my brother is on. Its very professional and has many many more veterans that are actually worthy of their title. Pity that the site is pretty much hated by AMN likewise. Its called E-mpire. It’s a good place. I think that I’ll just post at both places, just to check my options.

School has been another thing that has been eating up my time. I seem to go to school and then come home and spend ages revising and doing assignments. Ah well, I’m a hard worker and these are my final years. Its hard though I never seem to have time to program><. I need to get further in that. I’ll make the most of it in my Uni years I spose.

On one last note. I apologize for such a lack of work, I’ve been waiting for my brother to get the next version of our site up, as everything is tagged with the address. Well wallpapers. I’ll leave my sigs on our site. We have everything set up we just need to test really, damn web space company taking ages.>< Expect a lot of funky stuff from me soon.

Thanks for reading my first journal. Sorry that it was too long. I had heaps to spill.

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