Willpower

May 14, 2005

Like I said to my friend today I feel like a Buddhist extremist living in a cave with little to eat and drink but plenty to look forward to. At least I managed to pick up Timesplitters 2 for $35 Aus preowned, I’ve been wanting the game for ages. Finally! It sucks I look at the calender everyday and count the weeks left. It still seems like ages till I get ADSL, I don’t know, its become my only hope, strange thing is I seem to be on the net enough as it is normally at school. I even found myself editing my Gmail account I had that much free time. Maybe I am just wanting something that I might never get? At least I’m making good use of the time without unlimited net time. I’ve finished heaps of games, going for a job this week (back into pamphlet delivery, just what I need), getting a bit of cash of other things. I don’t know what I want. Probably just a very long sigh, to know that I can stop working so hard. Maybe a good sleep in, whatever it is possessions won’t do it. Its only the 2nd week into school(term 2) and I’m feeling it already. I need to get back into staying healthy. I’ve been going for 5 veg and 2 fruit a day(new adds ) I just need to sleep more. Must be that. Gettin’ me down too much, I’m still in it and kickin’ at most of the things that I do. I should be proud of myself I’ll just try and keep ontop but steady at the same time. I exhaust myself too much. I know I’ll wait it out, keep on trying my best at games, school, net, friends, everything, save up for an Ipod Mini(with money from the job). And splurge on the net, I’ve been burning myself out with too much games and school. I need to chill and it’ll be my chill. Keep on chuggin’ Dan!